I’m enduring an intensely busy season. It seems so many of us are — overcommitted, overstimulated, overworked, overwhelmed.
And although being overwhelmed isn’t a good thing, I sometimes find myself wearing my busyness like badge of honor — a seal upon my arm to prove that I’m, as my daughter would say, “the most busiest mommy ever.”
Martyrdom… it’s such a nasty habit. God never promised a stress-free life or a simplified schedule — quite the opposite, actually. I’m not sure why I still expect it.
Remember the Wife of Noble Character described in Proverbs 31:10-31? Talk about busy!
She’s up before dawn with countless responsibilities, pressures and competing priorities. But even in the face of overwhelming day-to-day circumstances, “She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come.”
Her circumstances seem overwhelming — but she is not overwhelmed. She chooses to see life for what it is — busy, vibrant, worth living well. She is present. I want to be that woman.
So tonight, after a 10-hour work day, I put down the iPhone and said “enough.”
I poured a glass of wine. I smelled my baby’s hair. I curled up with my husband to watch a movie. I took a bubble bath. I wrote this blog. I jumped on a few more emails to ease my mind before bed. (And as you may have guessed, I stayed up way too late.)
Did I accomplish everything in my to do list? Nope.
Did I make a small dent in what tomorrow holds? Absolutely not.
Did I balance it all perfectly? Uhm, no.
But man, I was present. Work life, mom life, wife life — I gave it my all in the moment.
I’ve come to accept that work-life balance isn’t real. Work-life harmony, on the other hand — this is something real that God is calling me to. It’s about following His lead in every step of my day, looking for what He is trying to show me along the way.
I don’t have harmony all mapped out yet. But I’m confident His way is better than mine. I’m going to let Him drive.
I’m buckled up, settled in — along for an amazing ride.