“My work all seems so useless! I have spent my strength for nothing and to no purpose at all.” – Isaiah 49:4 (NLT)
Seven days into 2015.
Every moment. Every day. Already accounted for. How does this happen?
I know – we’re all busy. And that’s nothing new or glory-worthy. (Get over it already, Brit.)
Even with my new overcoming overcommitment mindset, my schedule is still jam-packed. Work is in full swing, wife and mom things continue to pile up…
…Plus, we are moving into my in-law’s basement this weekend. More to come on that.
…Oh, and I hilariously began a half-marathon training program for this Spring. More to come on that.
The precious few activities that survived my overcoming overcommitment cut are of critical importance to me – ones that support my family, my career, and my mental, physical and spiritual health. I have clarity on priorities for the first time in quite awhile – and there’s no going back. But I’m still unsettled.
Does my life matter now?
My wheels are spinning furiously – but where exactly am I going? Does anything I do now really make a difference? Am I missing out? Does my busily mundane life really matter?
Relax. I don’t need a pat on the back. It’s not an ego issue I’m dealing with here. It may be grief, it may be guilt… it may be need for a fresh anointing on my life’s direction. And unfortunately, we don’t always get clear answers on this stuff.
We all want to feel safe, valuable, accepted. And like many, I get caught up in my fear of mattering to the wrong people.
If you’re like me, you find yourself caught in the trap of meaningless comparison. I judge myself by worldly criteria:
How do I look? Beauty = value in our culture – and so if I’m more beautiful/skinny/polished/stylish, I am more worthy. (Right?)
Do I have enough? More money, more things, more dominion and control… more of everything good. (Right?)
What have I accomplished? Titles, big paychecks, legions of minions to do my bidding… power and influence are keys to success. (Right?)
Do people like me? “I’m good enough, smart enough, and dammit, people like me!” (Don’t they?)
These criteria are ridiculous, because in the context of eternity, they don’t matter. Youth and beauty will fade. Things wear out and become obsolete. And some people, no matter how hard you try, just won’t like you.
There will always be someone prettier, smarter, skinnier, richer, more accomplished and just… well, better. Yet, knowing who we are – understanding and embracing our true identity as sons and daughters of the King of Heaven… saved, bought and paid for at an unthinkable cost – THIS is what empowers us to be comfortable in our own skin. Nothing else will satisfy over time. Try it – I dare you.
Our self-esteem builds upon the perceived opinion of the most important people in our life.
And for far too long, I’ve been focused on the wrong individuals. My bosses, my spouse, my parents…
What if I told you that Jesus Christ thinks you are freaking amazing – just the way you are? Yes, you.
He knows you’re imperfect and broken. He knows every secret, and He loves you anyway. In fact, He couldn’t possibly love you any more than He already does. You can’t earn His favor, even if you try. And if you put Him at the center – as the most important person in your life – you just might catch a glimpse of how He really sees you. As beloved.
His love – like nothing else in this world – is absolutely free.
Even if you don’t believe it or receive it, He still loves you – simply because you’re already HIS. If you want to know how much you matter to God, I urge you to ask Him.
But be prepared – His response may change your life forever.
“I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.” – Ephesians 3:14-19 (NIV)