def. 1. a pause or gap in a sequence, series, or process; 2. when somebody decides to “let go” of or “take a break” from some of his or her otherwise favorite things.
I always thought being “on hiatus” was a bad thing. Something flaky people do, or perhaps the inevitable pause before an imminent death.
I’ve never been more wrong.
Hiatus is a gift. Letting go of your favorite things even for a season can be a critical part of abiding rest – something I still struggle with after nearly two years of spirit-led calendar pruning.
It’s been 3 months and 5 days since my last blog post.
And guess what? I’m not sorry.
Let’s skip the standard MIA-blogger apologies and get real here. God’s been up to something really big in me – and going on hiatus has given me space to:
- process and discern His voice.
- step back from “production” and ask, “what am I really doing here?”
- find freedom from the pressures of consistency, control and perfectionism.
- discover intense, refining clarity of purpose.
Now here we are – providentially, two years to the holiday from where I began on Fat Tuesday, 2014 – with a new Lenten season and a newfound clarity in calling. God is so good — and His timing is perfect, as usual.
Calling Me Deeper Still
During my hiatus, I started digging deeper into The Word than ever before. It’s rich and inviting, but also intensely challenging – even scary. God began calling me into a place I wasn’t sure I wanted to go.
As a happy introvert, I’ve never been the one to speak up, to speak out. But I’m being called to speak truth in love, even when it’s hard. I rest in the fact that the Lord will go before me, and that my identity rests securely in Him.
Taming Lions has always been about God’s character – not mine. My personal journey is mere evidence of His love and faithfulness – and sharing it in fullness requires bravery I can only find in Him.
So I’ve given Him permission to take me deeper. I want more of Him, at any cost.
That first-step surrender has already resulted in mind-blowing breakthrough, and I’m just scratching the surface. I’m not going to be able to keep this to myself.
God is calling me into deeper understanding of what it means to be a woman in ministry – and I’m going to be learning and living it out here, no holds barred.
That statement alone may tick some of you off – and that’s ok. I am not here to be right, I’m here to be faithful — and to start some long-overdue discussions. It’s a new day, a new season — and I’m so excited to learn and grow together.
…If you missed me, you’re in luck – I’m back. (Oh man, am I back.)
…If you didn’t notice I was gone, I’m glad – maybe you were on hiatus, too.
Are you ready for a new adventure?
Get your armor on, liontamers.
Hiatus is over.