I want to thank the awesome Janea for not only giving Brit and me some much needed rest, but for also sharing her amazing journey. I don’t think that I’ve ever been this in awe of someone that I’ve never even met. Completely overwhelmed by her beauty, honesty, and strength.
Janea’s words led me to reflect on the last year of my life, and what a difference a year makes. Last year I was lost. I was depressed and lonely. Everything felt so different.
In January 2013, I had a potentially life saving surgery that completely altered my body. With fresh scars and numerous pounds of baby weight that I had yet to lose, I felt self conscious (to say the least). I was scared for my future, knowing that there would be subsequent surgeries with lots of unpredictability, and grasping to find faith without results. I felt distant from my family due to needing a lot of recovery time and new physical limitations, and I felt like I was missing seeing my boys grow up as well as causing quite a bit of additional stress for Jason. I had a couple of amazing, wonderful friends, but my desperation and needs were just too much for so few people to handle. I was insecure in so many aspects of my life and didn’t have a large enough support system to sustain me. Life became even more difficult when a friend that I had just gotten extremely close to suddenly moved to New York.
In May 2013, it all began to change. Looking back, I can see God placing people in my life exactly when I needed them most. At the time, I was just trying to get by. I met Brit and Kelli through our pastor and we became quick friends. So blessed to have those two in my life! Huge bonus that Brit’s husband and mine also became buddies. We continue to try to get together regularly and remain a constant in each other’s lives. I also had the pleasure of having breakfast with my friend, Leslie, that I don’t get to see very often. During that time, she told me that she had started running and without even trying, encouraged me to begin running, too. Her story of perseverance was so motivating that I couldn’t help but to give it a try. Along came Claudia, my best friend of many, many years, and agreed to start the C25K program with me. She was there in the beginning to push me and make me accountable and I can’t thank her enough for that. I was finding Faith, surrounded by Friends, new and old, and succeeding in Fitness, something that I had never done in the past, and even conquering Food. Even though I lacked Focus, I had enough people that loved me that were willing to lead me, at least for a short time.
Over the last year my life has changed so much. I lost most of my baby weight and I’m excited for race season to begin so that I will knock off those last few pesky pounds. I honestly can’t believe that 1 – I even know that there is a race season and 2 – that I am excited for it! I have amazing women in my life that I love and can count on. Getting to go on this Lenten journey with Brit is pretty amazing and bonding with Kelli in our (extremely) small group is the highlight of my week. I see God working on me. Just nudging. Going at my speed, my timing.
Last night I went to bed happy and reflecting on my day. After I got home from work, I needed to pick up a reserved book from the library. Since it was an awesome Spring day in Ohio I had a boy in each hand and we walked there. As we got close, I ran into Kelli. We chatted briefly, and it was just great to see her. Shortly after we got home, Brit brought Bella over to play with the boys during her choir practice. It was pretty much a regular, but perfect night. Everything that troubled me a year ago was no longer plaguing me. That’s when I realized that I finally had community and God had this plan for me all along.
Today I am celebrating Faith, Fitness, and Friends. xxoo