By Featured Guest Blogger, Janea Lewis
Last night, my husband asked me if I felt as though I had exaggerated my past a little in my posts.
He said he didn’t feel as though I was “as bad off” as I made myself seem. That after 12 years, he knew me — and he hadn’t seen that side of me — and wanted to give me credit where credit was due. And I love him for it. I agreed, maybe 5-10% or so of “exaggeration”. But I am going to call it figurative language.
What my dear, sweet husband struggled to understand was that this is my dark side. Everyone has one. I may not have been 600 lbs sipping a Big Gulp full of regular Coke in my recliner, asking for some pork rinds and Little Debbie’s, but my relationship with food was a road block. Whatever takes away from God and our relationship with Him is our dark side. Whether it is thinking about food, idolization, unhealthy relationships, managing violent thoughts, infidelity, lying, taming a pornography addiction, or ANY number of other recurring sins – everyone has a dark side. Forgive me while I burst into song….
Will it make you run away?
Or will you stay
Even if it hurts
Even if I try to push you out
Will you return?
And remind me who I really am
Please remind me who I really am
Everybody’s got a dark side
Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody’s a picture perfect
But we’re worth it
You know that we’re worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?
Sorry, I can’t help myself. Now that that’s over… I have to say, Kelly Clarkson has a point. Everyone has this scary part of who we are and things we don’t like about ourselves. She asks in the song, “Do you love me? Can you love mine?”
These are difficult questions. While the answer in a husband/wife relationship like mine is hopefully, “I can,” I wonder what God has to say. God loves us unconditionally — and He loves all of us. But He can redeem our dark side.