My darling Bella,
Five years now I’ve been hanging on the preciousness of your every breath. Each new day is a gift – and each moment I have with you is time best-spent. I am in awe of who you are, and I can’t wait to see who you are going to become.
Even in my best attempts to be a “good mom,” I know I fail you. I ask your forgiveness for times when it seemed you weren’t my top priority. In my trials and triumphs, you are what keeps me going. You are always my reason why.
I pray you know my love for you. I hope you never feel the need to question it.
I pray you discover and embrace your gifts. You are sensitive, inquisitive, kind, compassionate and a challenging free spirit. I wish I had a quarter of your bravery.
Most of all, I pray that you receive God’s love for you and learn to live your life in a way that demonstrates it to the world. He loves you immeasurably more than I ever could, which is something I still struggle to comprehend. All other loves of your life will pale in comparison to His.
It’s sometimes hard for me to accept that your relationship with God has nothing to do with me – He will pursue you and take you on a journey of your own. I have faith that He will always meet you right where you are, and that He won’t call you anywhere He won’t go, too. If you want to see Him for who He really is, all you need to do is ask.
No fear can hinder the love He has for you – a love that’s made a way for you and all of humankind to be with Him for eternity. He will call you out beyond your comfort zone. He will walk alongside you through refining fires. He will never, ever leave you – and He will give you exactly what you need to be brave.
Your life is still so simple – I wish I could protect you from the complexities of this world. May you never lose your sweet, childlike faith.
I love you, now and forever. Nothing will change that. Happy birthday, sweet girl.